One Night---Not Long Enough!!!

Today is my husband's 30th birthday!!!
We had a kid-free night last night because we celebrated up in Denver with friends! A great time was had by all; however, I'm quickly realizing one night without kids was NOT long enough! I know I must sound like the most selfish person alive, but moms and dads need breaks and for Jori & I they don't come often enough unfortunately. Plus, we got home around 2:00 am and had to pick up our kids at 8:00 am. 5 hours of sleep probably doesn't help my mood this morning!!! I just think to myself, we'd probably be better parents if we had MORE breaks. It seems as if all of our friends around us have breaks constantly---oh, wait---that's cause they do!!! It's hard not to compare and be jealous I must admit. I feel so worn down and out all the time. I want to be a better parent. I want to have more patience and love and spend quality time with my kids. I also need to feel refreshed and rejuvenated from time to time. I think people assume since I have family in town we get breaks all the time---WRONG! My parents travel all of the time for my dad's job and my sister, she's busy; I feel bad asking. I've decided we need a live-in nanny! ha! Like that would ever happen. Lately I've felt so overwhelmed and frustrated by the shouting, pinching, screaming, crying, fighting & whining that I want to crawl into fetal position and cry myself. I also realize there are other moms out there that have way more children than me, but God knows I can't even handle the two I have...hence why I'm venting about my poor mothering skills. It's just that being a mother is a hard job & frankly a job that I have wanted to quit in the last few weeks! Is it so much to ask to have compliant, obedient children. =)I know the answer to this already, no need to respond.

Ok, I think I'm done. I do feel a bit better. More self-therapy through blogging. It's been a while.